HELLO 2026

hello we forgot to tell the website visitors that we were going on our annual december break, we just bailed. so hello, we are back. sunday texts will resume next week. let me get the engine warmed up

i will probably write a bit about what happened over december in my next text but i had a close call with depression because of a second chronic illness diagnosis, ha ha ha ha. wow. i guess this is how it happens isn’t it. your body gets sick, stays sick, and you are made into a new shape that other sicknesses fit into very easily.

I lost my mind for a few weeks there but I think I am coming out of it? because the other thing with chronic illnesses is that it’s a lot easier to survive when you do the preparation. I am figuring things out. I am giving more time to preparation and all of a sudden I don’t want to throw myself in the Mersey. I think i can swim it.

I have been reading books and using watercolour pencils and knitting a sheep and doing my cardio rehab programme and baking tahini cookies and trying to convince myself to enjoy tahini and playing lots of Overwatch ranked (top of plat 3 dmg! nearly plat 2!) and, yeah, trying not to be too sad.

if i have a resolution for 2026 it is to be so relaxed. so molecularly relaxed. to have a calm nervous system. to unclench my jaw. here is to a more physically bearable year

gdlp x